Author Archive for alirachelpearl

Ali Rachel Pearl is a writer, teacher, and organizer living and working primarily in Los Angeles, but she can also regularly be found wandering the Mojave Desert.

The Fates We Have Ordained

There’s this quote from Nabokov’s Lolita that haunts me. I have read Lolita twice in my life, but when I found this excerpt as epigraph earlier this year while reading for field exams, I didn’t recognize it. It haunts me because it lays out so clearly the ways in which I’ve sealed my own fate by presuming not just the narratives of the…

I can’t think of any way out of this feeling of being flooded from head to toe with acid than to try and write through it. But this is when I write the worst. When I’m trying to expel something toxic from my body. I’m not sure what this particular toxin is though. Last Saturday I got an email from…

This #13 (Five Promises)

1. Make time to read whatever I want to read. For the first three years of my PhD program (and before that in my Master’s program), I only read books not directly related to my coursework, exams, or dissertation during summer, winter, spring, and holiday breaks. But now that I’m post-coursework and (very nearly) post-exams, I am going to make…

Summer Slips Away

I haven’t gone this long without posting in years. I’ve somehow managed to have an incredibly busy past two months since I returned from Canada. Very soon after I got back to Colorado in June, I turned 27. Then I decided that I would work from a different coffee shop in Denver every day that I was able for the…

I used to live here. One day I was 21 and I had spent a year taking care of the elderly and flying back and forth between LA and Denver, and the next day I had to decide between going to grad school in Salt Lake City or doing something else in any place other than Salt Lake City. And…

I’m sitting on a couch in the walkout basement apartment of a cute little house on Denver Street in Salt Lake City, Utah, and I’m smiling because this street in the place where I used to live shares a name with the city where I was born, and my dream is for everything and everyone I love to collapse time…